Boy oh Boy!!

Looks like I'm going to have to change the name of my blog....Our Four Sons and Us or Sons r' Us or I love Boys!! or something like that. That's right, what you are looking at here is defiantly another penis. Yep, right there, where the arrow is pointing. That will be the 5th penis in my house. Not that I have anything against penises, its just, you know, that's kinda alot of em. I'm basically surrounded. Now that I have offended everyone, here is our news in a tamer way. We are having another boy. A sweet, tiny, precious, little, baby penis oh, oh wait, sorry I'm meant boy. It wasn't a surprise, not really. I had been preparing myself for the news. I really knew it was going to be a little guy. I can't say that I wasn't holding out hope for a little girl but I thought all along that it was going to be a boy. I didn't even cry. I choked up...a little...but no tears. It was kinda funny because after the nurse looked at all the important stuff, heart, brain, bladder, etc. she said, "okay now for the big reveal." She scans to the appropriate area and said "any ideas??" Uh yeah, I have defiantly seen that before, I said, "Boy". I looked at Ryan and he gave me a half smile and I let out a sigh. That was it. We did have all our boys there and so she knew our situation and she kinda laughed and said, "its okay to be sad". That's when I choked up. I would have been fine if she hadn't of say that.

So, I've given it alot of thought and after talking to Roy about it for a little while he gave me some great insight. I am not really sad that I am having a boy. In fact, I love my boys. And, I already have all the stuff, I'm prepared for a boy. What I am sad about, is the fact I will never have a girl. We are pretty certain that we are done; so as Roy put it I am mourning the girl that I'll never have. I am letting go of the prom dress and wedding planning and flowers in the hair and little pink dresses. Oh great now I am going to cry...(tear) No really, I just have to let it go. People have been really supportive though and have reminded me of daughter-in-laws and even granddaughters but it really isn't the same, is it? So I just have to work through it and put the thought to rest. And I will, its fine, I'm fine...girls are super whiny anyway, right??

On a lighter note, I do have to share one funny story about the ultrasound before I wrap it up. Like I mentioned before we ended up having all the kids with us which was really cool. They all got a big kick out of it especially Hayden. But before we got there we were trying to tell them that it was really cool that they got to come with us because we got to see the baby today and we would find out what it is and things like that. Well it wasn't until we got to the Doctor's office that we realized Owen thought that we were actually going to have the baby right then. So we were quickly trying to tell him that that wasn't the case and that we were only going to see pictures of the baby. All we managed to do was confuse the poor kid. Anyway, we get in there and the nurse is getting me all prepped and squirting the jelly on my belly and I look over and Owen is getting this really worried look on his face and he covers his ears and says,"is it going to pop?". Hahahaha. Poor thing, what was going on in his little mind? Did he think the baby was just going to jump out my belly button all alien or something? And why did he cover his ears? Would that be loud? Haha. It was too cute and sooo funny. I love that kid. Such an imagination. :0)

The little guy was really squirmy during the ultrasound and he had his face planted in my placenta so we didn't really get any great pictures but here are a few of my favorites:

Little ankles crossed


Kinda sitting Indian style...you can also see his little hand.

This one is my favorite. Its of his back. I just love little babys' backs.

So sweet.

I really can't wait to meet him.